this song speaks it all.

范玮琪 - 是非题
每段故事都有一篇剧情
每段爱情都像动人旋律
一颗真心却只向着你前进
也许爱 越单纯越着迷

你是窗外另外一片风景
在你眼里我是什么关系
你的呼吸藏在我的爱情里
何时能诚实面对自己
那一句我爱你
我们从不开口那个言语
永远像少了勇气
别人都说
我和你之间的关系
没有人相信只有关心

我们从不正视那个问题
那一些是非题
总让人伤透脑筋

我会期待
爱情盛开那一个黎明
一定会有美丽的爱情

issues must be resolved. :)

you made me realise:
1. whatever I say, is bullshit.
2. whatever I need or want you to do for me, you do for others only.

ha. the irony of it all.

Humans are hard nuts to crack.
When everything goes well in life,
very seldom, people think about properly cherishing someone, or even showing their appreciation of having someone in their life.
More often than not, people say they are too preoccupied with other things in life, thus they forget to do so.
How sad, right?
:'(

So, people, remember to show your love for the people who have been standing by you and caring for you.
Tell them that you cherish them. :)

i wish i wasn't feeling insecure :(

I hate this feeling.
This feeling sucks.
Why do I even have this feeling?
rawr.
I don't want to feel this way.
SHOO!

:(

:(
Life goes on, I guess.
The good thing that has ever been happening for me recently is that my faith has been growing stronger.
:)

Cooked dinner just now.
Accidentally landed a deep cut on my finger.
Painful. but not as painful as the hurt I received from your words.
I guess I need a long time to recover this time.

Lesson Learnt today : I possess all the flaws that I'd hated myself to have.
GREAT. sigh.
:'(

today's a FUN day.
Me and BF went to watch Monsters vs Aliens.
it's a great show!!
we ran into his gd fren and his gf in the cinema!
Such a coincidence.
wahaha.
then we went shopping w them.
Helped to choose a gorgeous diamond ring.
and of course, it was the more expensive one la.
My taste never fails me.
(not that I'm THAT materialistic; but somehow, the prettier things that appeal to me, tend to cost more :p)

after which, we went to eat KU GUA TANG (OUR FAVOURITE!!!!!!!!! ^^)
it's so yum yum, can!
I wanna go again soon, JEREMY! :D
then went work.
after work, we ate yumyum green tea icecream again (OUR OBSESSION! :D)
then we went home rested awhile.
then BOYFRIEND gave me my second lesson of driving.
I know he was trying his best not to lose his patience with me.
ha!
but I know how to turn round and round and ROUND ler!! :)
yay!
but I'm a potential road HOGGER.
:P
but yups, I had fun.
then went home watch teevee, ate instant spag.
the BF taught me the basics of piano; cause I really wanna learn properly :))
MR JEREMY LIM is a great teacher :))
and I love him lots! ^^

okay. tml's my first lesson w my instructor.
hope I'll do ok.
gg sleep.
nights :D

I'm feeling like shit right now.
rawr!
really need to scream it all out.
:((
now, I know why I was having the weird moody feelings.

:0)

yesterday was a well-spent day :)
Went watch Terminator Salvation and Night @ the Museum 2 with Jer.
Both shows are simply fabulous :))
After which, we went to Seasons for some food.
Had nice fat potato wedges (Jer's Fav), yummielicious Cream of Mushroom (Our Fav), nicenice hawaiian pizza :)
and of course, nice swensens' icecream :))
then we went home to go through some cds.
Kind of relive our childhoods :))
so nice!
then went for crabs for dinner before going home.
:))

Life with you can be so simple, yet makes me so happy :))

Turning 21 :)

Yups. Am turning 21 in less than half an hour's time :)
but I think I've already gotten all my blessings and celebrations done beforehand lers :)
thanks to fellow PRFs; namely ...
Florence Siew
Quek Peiling
Soo Suxian
Yvonne Peh
Eileen Tay
Cheng Liyi
For the really sweet celebration.
and you girls ah,
the video nearly made me cry.
( I had to hold back my tears.)
thank you girls for the KTV treat, and the stars balloons!!
I simply love it.
I know I wasn't the most enthu birthday girl yesterday.
thanks for bearing with me, fellow PRFs.
and thank you to ah bon, liyi and clement for the pwetty wallet :)
thank you all for sticking by me all these while and for your concern, girls :)
oh! thank you to EUGENE toh who cldn't make it.
I know you care too :)
get well soon ya?
and thanks to ANU!
for trying to keep me company with the nuts game and for trying ur best to make the atmosphere as hype as possible :)
thank you people :))
really. thank you.

and of course,
I must thank the person who took pains to convince me that I'm nuts not wanting to celebrate my 21st birthday.
and whom happens to be my most beloved boyfriend, Jeremy Lim Chuan Ghai.
thank you for the gorgeous necklace :)
thank you for the 21 lovely red roses.
thank you for making a surprise appearance.
thank you for volunteering to be my voice when I lost it :)
thank you especially for standing by me and supporting me in all that I do and making sure that I'm happy :)
thank you, dear.

and so, yups. thank you everyone for making it possible :)
I cldn't have been happier.
I love you all! :))

and, I thank God for putting all of you in my life.
I really feel more than blessed :)
thanks.

I'll be away for the weekend. :)
hopefully everything goes well.

It's not difficult at all; just try harder...

it's OVER :))

it's finally over!
it's been way too long a period that I've been eating and studying at MACS almost every single day.
SO FATTENING can!
haha.
though I'm feeling kind of lousy for my paper today,
but I am glad that it is over :))

Boyfriend, thank you for making the effort to come over and celebrate the end of my exams with me.
thanks for cheering me up and believing in me :))
I LOVE YOU!! ^^

WHEE!! ^^

I CONQUERED THE M.A.B MONSTER today!!
never felt so happy in a long long time :))
ONE LAST ONE TO GO! :))

what to do?
Life just moves on, right?

oh wells.
you really didn't remember at all.

hmt paper is in one more day.
didn't do well for my individual project.
I need a miracle to help me through it.
No more breakdowns.
I'm sick of it already.
Am going to study somemore.
to quote my avid reader-unifren:
"Even though we may have lost the battle, we are going to win the WAR."
hopes tomorrow will be a better day.

happy 40th months

happy 40th monthsery. but you don't remember.

I MISS MY BF NA.

I miss my dearest boyfriend.
but I doubt that he knows.
maybe he knows; but not the extent of it.
I miss him when I am studying for my papers;
thinking if he's also rushing out his urgently-pending assignments.
I miss him when I am having my meals.
thinking if he remembered to eat in the midst of his busy schedule.
I miss him, simply all the time.
BOYFRIEND, I need a hug badly :'(

random tots.

just some random thoughts...

1. Exams are SO near.
yucks. hope it will be over soon.

2. Life sucks at the moment.
but I do try to find some happiness from this dark moment of my life.
thank you to my most beloved boyfriend and my dearest friends for your support :)

3. and ya, I'm turning twenty-one in a month's time.
thanks to those who have asked about how I wana celebrate.
and no, I really don't feel like celebrating it.
I just wana get out of this dark moment.

4. feeling mentally and emotionally tired.
must cheer up soon.
jiayou limjiaxin.

I need a miracle.

I think I need a miracle badly.
a BIG one is needed badly.

I have to make a big decision.
One choice made, would require a great deal of sacrifice.
Or I could choose the easier way out.
and be the self-centered and selfish me.
I wish there was an option C.
perhaps, that option C is a miracle bahs.
Guess, I'll go pray about it.

Lord, if things can't be easier, make me stronger.

:))

AHHHHHHH. finally home sweet home after a long long day! :((

Two things that didn't make my day :

1. Been approached by the G.H.O.S.T.
she was like practically haunting me!
made me so paranoid!!
she approached me and tried to pinch me with an evil look on her face can!
I'm NOT exaggerating!
ask ronald. he witnessed it ALL. >.<
horrible shit.

2. Bad Strain of my shoulder.
I'm practically feeling like a handicapped lo.
any movement give rise to pain.
even breathing in deep.
Goodness.

Things that made my day :DD

1. it's my LAST day of SCHOOL! :DD *blinkblink*
2. Milo treat from Ronald who claims that it's for not seeing each other regularly enough >.<
3. I got to sit and chat with my favourite people in class!! :))
4. My sweet friends who helped me print my notes so that I can start on my revision :D

Wells. Though things aren't going great for me at the moment,
but I really pray and hope that they will turn out for the better.
'Cause I really feel tired :(